last weeks weight 315.6
This weeks weight 316.0
That totally SUCKS! I know its my own fault but I'm going to blame it on the F'n jelly beans that have been screaming my name. I only eat 3............at a time. But I only do that a couple (6 or 7) times a day. But seriously, I looked on the package and it says that a serving is about 14 jelly beans and that is 160 calories. Now I have been keeping my calories at around 1000 a day. I do not eat my exercise calories. I DO log those damn jelly beans and I still have been working out. Why did I gain weight then? I can understand back in the day when I was in one of my moods I could eat a whole box of that glorious cheesy noodle substance? Why could I go to a China buffet and load up on egg rolls, crab Rangoon, General chicken and tons of fried rice. I haven't had any of that in over 4 months but I eat a couple of handfuls of jelly beans and I gain weight. I don't understand!!! I would almost kill for a gooey pizza. Even some chips and cheesy queso dip sounds glorious. Does thinking and dreaming about food make you gain weight?
I guess I'm starting to face reality. I thought that when I started this at my weight, just changing my eating habits, reducing my intake and my band helping me feel full the weight would just magically slip off. I knew that it would be my job to control myself, but I really thought that I wouldn't have to work really hard at it for at least 100 lbs. I knew then I might have to face going to the gym and sweating (ugggg!) So to prepare myself and to get the kick start it I have been going 2x a week and letting a trainer bust my butt and I can tell it has helped, but do I need to increase this? Is that my life from now on? I've never been one who wanted to exercise. I want to have energy and go do things, but not the gym, run, or even zumba. I want to go to the zoo with my kids, go to amusement parks, walk the mall. Go to concerts. Travel and sight see. I want to stay in exotic locations and fabulous hotels, but I could care less if there is a fitness room in the hotel. Do I need to change that way of thinking? Am I ever going to like to exercise?
Oh, and has anyone else had problems with blogger this week? There are times I can't read anyones blogs and forget about commenting, it just locks up! I have been reading when I get a chance!